what to do..??..

I know i said my next post would be about sex before marruage but something more important is bugging me right now.. Long post alert!!!

Like I said in earlier posts, i went to a small international school when we lived in naija. The principal was white but majority of the teachers were black. There was this one teacher, lets call him Mr O. He was the most laid back teacher i have ever come across in my life. The only thing that he was against was cheating, apart from that anything else went. we started getting really close. Not close in a sexual kind of way, but close enough for me to tell him my problems, what guy i was liking that week and whatever else there was to say and he would also tell me what was happening in his life. It was even me that encouraged the relationship with the woman that is now his wife. now that i look back he was not a very good influence. He was the one that tried to get me involved with anotehr teacher at the school.. i was 14..

I had this best friend who moved to the school a month after i did. She was a bit too fake ajebutter. Fake american accent, fake persona.. but being the nice person that i am, i gave her a chance and we became best friends. SHe ws a SLUT though.. one time she made a video for this one guy at school and after that they came over to my house and hooked up. what was my role in their hooking up? well i was just the alibi because she obviously couldnt tell her mom that she was going to a guy's house.. she was 13.. This is how she started, she did some crazy ish at school with some guy who basically just wanted to practice his skills on her and she eventually got my boyfriend to break up with me. After i left naija, i heard about all the shit she was getting herself into- bringing home random guys to her FATHER'S house and having sex with them.. things like that. she was 14 at this point..

The one that shocked me though was when she told me that MR O had fingered her.. WHAT????? he was her private tutor and they would always be in the dining room alone. common sense should have told her not to wear skimpy clothes especially knowing how horny the guy usually was. she said that while he was doing it, she just imagined it was her boyfriend and let him continue. I belived her immediately because i remebered that he told me once of how he had sex with a student he was tutoring, first in the library at school, then at her house on a regular basis, i also believed it because she was easy... This was a little while before his wedding.

When we went to naija inthe summer, my dad decided to let him come tutor us because he wanted us to be prepared for the next semester at school. he started tutoring us and everything was fine. I thought he had changed now that he was married and had a child. I met some guys in the summer and once agen went to him for advise on what to do. His own was to tell me how to let them suck on my tatas and how to go about having sex with them. This should have been a warning sign. A week before he was supposed to stop teaching us, he tried to finger me. As in i was sitting next to him at the table where we do work and he started rubbing up on my thighs and tryna get his finger closer to my vejajay. I smartly crossed my legs so he couldnt go further but he was persistence and geting rougher, i finally got up and told him i was tired of the lesson. He let me go, obviosuly dissapointed that he didnt get some. I immediatly went and told my cousin who was staying with us for the holiday. She was ANGRYYYY, she wanted to go up to him and yell but i begged her not to, partly because iwas so ashamed for him. She told me to tell my parents but i refused because i knew it would tear his family apart and i reli didnt want that. He just got married and his daughhter wasnt even a year old yet. I just let it go and hoped he would change

A couple days ago my friend who still has a sibling at the school told me that Mr O had done the same thing to another girl. she was in the same position as i was. Not wanting to tell her parents because they would make a huuuuuuge deal and probably even get him arrested. what she was worried about was his wife and kid.

Its soo easy for people to say if i get raped or abused il go tell someone immediatly but all that changes when it actually happens. Although he didnt succed in my case, i was still emmotionally scarred and i couldnt even tell anyone except my cousin. how could someone i trusted soo much try to sexually assault me?? i obviously cannot tell my parents now but i dunno if i should advise the other girl to.. My fear is that he may even do it to his own daughter.. i really dont know what to do...