i need some lovin..

Ah so my first post in the NEw year. The christmas holiday was very relaxing to say the least, my best friend come over to spend christmas with my family. She will probably figure out that this is my blog after this post.. I tried to do the anonymous thing so no one would really find out who i was because in a way it make reading biased to some degree.. ANyway whateva sha.. back to the hols. the last time i had seen her was when i went on holiday to naija this summer. She spent a while at my house then. I didnt think i would be seeing her anytime soon but she moved to Canada! I was soo happy and she ended up at my house..

Its like anytime both of us are together crazy shit goes down, i may put details of our.. um adventures up in another post. First week she was here, we went to a restaurant with a couple of my freinds and all hell broke loose(in a good way) we had soo much fun but now we can never return to that restaurant. Iv been in this canada for 2 years now, none of these stupid oyibo boys have even looked my way twice.. even the brothers o. 3 weeks that she was here i got myself a boyfy! I still cant believe it.. She's gone back to school now and i miss her soo much. This morning i got really sick, i dont even know what happened, felt like an asthma attack but it wasnt, popsi says its probably because i was missing her already.. maybe it was. Its just for the past 3 weeeks shes brought back a bit of the naija that i love and miss.. it was soo much fun

ON to the reason for my post.. I cannot even believe im saying this but me and ***** from previous posts are now together.. ask me how it happened and i will tell you that i still cant beleive it talk less of telling you how it happened. After the post where i said he had hooked up with another girl, he sent me a text the next day.. just casual stuff.. i was soo pissed. WHy was he texting me, i had just managed to convince myself(for the millionth time) that i was over him. I sha replied because we all know i was not over him.. we started talking that week, but then on christmas he didnt even say merry christmas.. ok watever.. then he just stops talking to me.. A couple days later we were to go for a suprise party for a family friend. I got a text-Are you gonna be at the party for :0..
i was determined not to reply but i did.

We got to the party and i have to admit iwas looking FLY!! (MIght have had a lil something to do with the fact that he was gonna be there). Eveyone was looking at me and missy(my best friend).. he sends me a text... im thinking hmm just about time. We sha text back and forth through the party but we never got a chance to actually get to talk face to face. Later on that evening he calls and we talk to for 2 hours straight.. i have to admit the thought of my phone bill did creep up a couple times but i was like wareva mehn i didnt know when next i would get the chance to talk to him that long.. Before the end of the call he asked me out. He slipped it in so casually that i ended up saying i dont know :{ i eventually said yes. The next day he called me and the day after that.. it felt soo good listing to his voice made me warm, not running out of things to say felt so good.. it went like this for a couple days, then i got sick and i started felling really weird towards him. conversation didnt feell as good.. We went on a date to the movies and it was soo cute. in the movie we saw, when they kissed he leaned in and kissed me.. ahhhhh it was soo great, something i had been waiting for what 6 months now was finally happening...

I was soo worried that he was gonna get a cold and i was soo right. The next day he called and told me he had a cold. Damn.. i felt soo bad but kissing him was soo worth it.. I should be completely happy right? Everything i wanted is finally happening so why am i not completely.. Hes in university and hes got soo much work but i still need a little us time, a lil loving.. im the kind of person that needs constant hugs and kisses and such.. And i wont even get to see him that much. Im starting to wonder if its worth investing soo much time and my heart into something that wont last or that will leave me heartbroken....

Princess J xx